Saturday, April 10, 2010


THE APPLE CORE

An apple core is the center part of an apple. When an apple is consumed, often the core is not eaten as it is woodier, contains seeds, and is sometimes less sweet. In the Venezuelan culture, the core is believed to be poisonous. This remaining part is usually discarded. Evan certainly knows how to discard an apple core and last week he thought the toilet was "the" perfect place to accomplish that. Then he pooped on top of it and flushed.

After days of battling a clogged toilet with every reasonable device, I too, like the Venezualan people, believe the core to be poisonous. The struggle continues...

Sunday, April 4, 2010

An Amazing Day Starts with a...

(JOURNAL DATE 3/17/2010)

...run! What else could I have said. And today, unlike any other day in Kenya so far, started in an amazing fashion. Awoke around 5:30 AM and met Karanu (the young surgeon hosting me) to go for a 12 km run. What I didn't know was how amazing those 7 miles would be. We started out the gate of the hospital, through the area of Otiende (in Langata) and into Nairobi national park, which is a mere 3K from the hospital. As we ran on the paths of the national park I was amazed to see the African sunrise over an almost picture perfect safari setting - herds of cape buffalo, warthogs, antelope, zebra and even a few giraffe. And to top it off, one rhino spotted around 7 km. As we came back through the Otiende area, the school children were gathered and were quite excited to see a mazungu (translation: white person, pronouncation: ma-zune-gu). So excited, that they ran with me for stretches yelling to all their buddies "Mbio mazungu" (T: running white person, P: m-bee-o). It was the most amazing run I've ever been on and one I will never forget.




Above are pictures of the bridges over the safari land we ran on when I went back - trouble is, during the afternoon the animals were sparse. I did catch another rhino!

Spent the rest of my day in the surgical theater today and it was "prostate" day. They reserve Wednesday to do most of their open prostate surgery. Basically, make a small incision in the lower abdomen, open the bladder and use their finger to remove the prostate. These surgeries are almost extint in the US as we are capable of the exact same operation with a scope which requires no surgical incisions. Additionally, our patients generally go home the same day or the next. These poor men are in the hospital for 5-7 days. We did 7 prostate surgeries today and they let me do them all after I assisted the first two. It's a simple operation really and nothing compared to the complexity of radical prostate surgery or transurethral prostate surgery (something I am much more accustomed to). By the end of the day, I was completing these in 25-30 minutes skin-to-skin. I really enjoyed it.

Above is Dr. Nyagah and Lydia (scrub RN) completing an appendectomy in a 12-year-old boy.

But that was only part of the day: finished up the day with a couple c.sections, ruptured ectopic pregnancy, torsed ovary, appendix and I was provided the opportunity to teach them an alternative way to divert urine following bladder removal. This was largely successful and the surgeons felt this is something that they could add to their treatment options. However, some of them (there are 3 surgeons here) showed more interest than others. I've already been placed in a box by one of them, who sees my time here as nothing more than lightening the workload. He really isn't interested in practice change, even if it is teachable and applicable. The thing is, as a urologist, I have a very specific area in which I study and can provide them with more insight than their general surgery training. I guess I shouldn't worry about it. I'll let everyone get what they want out of my time here.

As if this wasn't enough for one day, that evening Karanu and I went to Kibera. I had been near it but this was the first time I would travel into the famous "shantytown." My view of life would never be the same. As we entered via a side alley, we were surrounded by children chanting "mazungu! mazungu!" As a mazungu in the slums, I represent many things, but to the children I represent hope. They see white people and foreigners as evidence that their is life outside their sad existence. That people outside of Kibera care and are willing to help. Most of all though, the kids see me as a zoo animal - we are more rare than elephants in these parts and the kids love catching a glimpse. They all know one phase in English - How are you? - and they repeat it over and over no matter where you walk. This is a very unsafe place to be as a foreigner and even for a Kenyan not living in the slums, so Karanu and I walked briskly and I did not bring a camera (this time - I did later). On this trip, I did not speak much to the residents (although I did the next time) but I did meet an artist named Joseph, who was quite amazing. I told him how good he was and that he should paint more of his tribe, the Maasai people, to sell to tourist. (Remember this part because I will see him again in a few days).

The location at which we entered Kibera.

Let me orient you to Kibera. This place is no stranger to tribal/gang violence, riots, drugs, alcohol, sexual immorality, disease and a lot of petty crime. The conditions, in short, were atrocious. Two million people packed into 2 square km with no electricity, no plumbing, no city resources. The residents of Kibera are written off by the country of Kenya and the city of Nairobi. They have nobody to defend them, nobody to stand up for them and absolutely nobody of power that cares about them enough to claim them. So how did it all begin? Well, we can thank the British for that. The British colonized much of the world, including Kenya and the more centrally located Uganda. In an effort to "open up" the interior of Africa in the late 19th century, the redcoats started building a railroad from Mombasa (the coast of Kenya and previous capital) toward Kampala, Uganda (the present capital of Uganda). In the interim, the city of Nairobi was created out of thin air to support this effort and people were "transferred" from northern Kenya and Sudan to build the railroad. When the efforts were completed the Sudanese and displaced Kenyan were given land outside of Niarobi. These individuals have been called nubians and, under the British colony rule, were the rightful owners of the land - their reward for a life of slavery and displacement. As Nairobi industrialized and grew, it became obvious that more and more rural Kenyans would move to the city and the nubians started to offer their land for rent. Many poor rural Kenyans started moving in and building "structures" to live in. The city never brought power, plumbing or amenities and drew the area on the map as a green blob outside the city - funny thing is, the slums are still a green blob on the map today, except the blob is now inside the city. As the structures grew and more people moved in, the Nubins continued to divide the land up, affording each member of the slum less and less space to live in. Today, the average family of 4 sleeps in a 6 x 6 foot room, which may be built from mud, sticks, aluminum or a combination of and the floor is dirt/garbage or concrete (for the lucky ones). And, yes, they sleep on the floor. The British treated this area like Americans treat Native American reservations - do what you want with the land, but we don't feel like providing anything. This worked okay because the Nubins were the rightful owners and even had paperwork to prove it. Eventually, the slum was so large, that it was divided into villages, each with its own "governments" of nubians and many times governed by tribal law (still the case today).

A known orphan in the Kianda village of Kibera. He is taken care of by multiple "mamas" in the nearby housing.

When Kenya gained its independence in 1963, the new government stripped the nubians of their claim on the land but did not really do anything. In fact, the nubians still claim the land, still claim rent from the inhabitants (about Ksh300-700 per month for above described "complex" - $4-7 USD), still govern amongst themselves within the villages and still lobby for the city to acknowledge the area. They want acknowledgement because the fact now is this land is valuable. They can build 5 story apartment buildings here and make a lot more money - of course this would displace millions of people as well. So, why hasn't this happened? Funny thing, because of the years of living here with no city amenities, the people of Kibera merely throw their garbage on the ground. Over time this has led to incredible instability of the hills and ground onto which the buildings would be placed. In fact, Kibera is literally built on a landfill now. Wherever you walk, you are literally standing on garbage and the smell doesn't lie. It is so bad, that during raining season landslides will literally bring down 25 houses at a time and kill hundreds.


It's "cute", but this is the railroad the original nubians help build and it goes right through Kibera and is still active today. Notice the garbage, structures and 13 or 14 year old girl with an infant of her back.

Well, where do you stop...I could go on for days about the place and people I served, but the reality is this, the conditions are worse than you can probably imagine, 50% of 16-25 year-old girls are pregnant, 40% HIV rate, 60% of the children you see are orphaned and rely on a kind stranger or older sibling, the avg resident lives on 45 cents per day, 60% of Nairobi's population lives here and they occupy a mere 6% of the city's land... without clean water...without electricity...without plumbing... and many without hope, vulnerable, becoming prey of radical Islam and sitting on the frontlines of a spiritual battlefield they I didn't know existed before today...

Me in Kibera.
HAPPY EASTER


Saturday, April 3, 2010

When Africans get sick...

(JOURNAL DATE 3/16/2010)

...they really get sick. I did rounds, clinic and theater today and noticed just how bad and advanced these disease processes are. Of course, this is likely secondary to lack of finances and access to care for the Kenyans. For one, none of these people have anything close to insurance. In fact, almost 80-90% of Kenyans are uninsured and pay for health care entirely out of their pocket. Second, the majority of Kenyans have limited access to care. They do have public hospitals here, but they are slow, inefficient, and frankly provide substandard care. Most of the Kibera residents we serve at St. Mary's Mission Hospital understand that they will get better care here than at the larger public hospital, Kenyatta Memorial in Nairobi.


Back to the diseases. They see a lot of advanced cancer and most of the medical care provided for this is palliative. Esophageal, gastric and breast cancer is common and often terminal at diagnosis here. Interesting that I've seen so many gastric (stomach) cancers, the incidence in the US getting lower each decade. Also, they often don't stage the esophageal cancer. Unless the patient is very young, they almost make no effort to determine whether or not the patient could be saved with radical therapy. Additionally, there is extremely limited access to medical oncologist in Kenya, with the wait for chemotherapy often extended beyond the anticipated lifespan.



All of this without even mentioning HIV and tuberculosis. The rate of HIV in Kibera is around 40% and growing. This puts a tremendous burden on mission hospitals but also on the communities in which it is spreading. Many children in Kibera are orphaned (literally or metaphorically) and grow up with little adult influence. This has lead to elevated levels of sexual immorality and spread of disease - not only among the teenagers but vertical transmission to their offspring. Kibera has multiple generations of HIV positive families and then the problem becomes cyclic. Doesn't take a huge stretch of the imagination to realize that cycle won't break soon.

All in all, rounds this morning with nothing short of depressing. It's amazing how poor the conditions are and how little hope many of these people have. They are eager to hear about Jesus (and America) but they have trouble grasping why He would provide such acceptance of them with grace and mercy. I just want them to understand ... "To hang between two thieves in darkness, love thought you were worth it". (Nicole Nordeman)

ON THE LIGHTER SIDE OF EVAN

Today (yes, really today) Evan and I went for an inaugural 1-mile run. He begged me to take him running today, so finally I gave in. He was so proud (and so was I) that he actually ran a full mile with me. And not so slow: 12 min and 33 sec. Way to go Evan!!! Guess I'll be signing him up for the kids 1-mile runs now :0



Friday, April 2, 2010

First day...

(JOURNAL DATE 3/15/2010)

...at the hospital and I didn't sleep well. More than a little anxious for the day. Landed at 10 PM last night and off to work at 6 AM today. Met one of the keepers of the guest house, Leah, and she made me an egg to go with some sort of cornflake cereal - which I proceeded to eat with cream instead of milk. Awesome.


The hospital is a REALLY BUSY place. The patients show up at 5 AM and start getting numbers. Patients come all day and go through a triage system, which sends them to the appropriate doctor, nurse or provider. It's basically the busiest ER I've ever seen. The acute care and surgical clinics see no less than 300 patients per day. The hospital is situated on the outskirts of Nairobi (to the SW) in the suburb of Langata and adjacent to one of the largest "shantytowns" or "slums" in the world called Kibera (google it, it is impressive).



Got a tour of the hospital and met most of the staff. There are 300 beds divided up into maternity, pediatrics, womens and mens wards. The hospital has the bare bones needed to provide decent care to an impoverished population: a basic lab, basic pharmacy, x-ray and ultrasound. The wards have 1 nurse for 25-40 patients - guess our nurses have little to complain about. They are not only understaffed, but they have no ability to regulate fluid rates, ins and outs, and maintain dosing schedules. This was most obvious on the pediatric wards, where IV medication rates were impossible to regulate. So much for weight based dosing. The operating room (to be called the theater from now on) consists of three "major" rooms, outpatient surgery room and a "scope" room. I got started in the theater right away. Minimal urology today, just a meatal stenosis and hypospadias revision. Spent most of the day doing ortho, general surgery and cesarean sections. This hospital does 900 deliveries per month and 300 are via C. section. I assisted 2, then was observed doing 2 and then did 2 c.sections on my own. Jet lag was terrible and I had to scrub out and go take a nap at 3 pm. It was embarrassing but going halfway around the world takes an adjustment. Not to mention, an overwhelming sense of being out of place.

The day certainly has made an impression on me. I'm in absolute awe that these people have any hope at all, that they find any reason to carry on, and that they have not been completed corrupted by the horrid conditions in which they live. The slum of Kibera is one of the most awful places I've seen. I'm just overwhelmed today...I'm having trouble understanding how God expects me to reach these people from my "ivory tower"... I can feel the prayers of those at home and will continue to do my own...


Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Just got...



...here. Wow do I feel out of place. I've been to a few places in this world but never have I felt so far from home. Getting through customs was hardly security and thankfully my ride was there to pick me up. Kenyan roads are 1) backwards (ex-British colony) and 2) treacherous. People line the roads everywhere you go and there are basically zero traffic laws enforced. We got to the hospital grounds (gated community near the Kibera slum, Kenyan prison and a big police station) and the guest house is really nice. However, it is very different than home - open windows with comfortable temps at the equator, cold showers and a huge hairy spider to greet me in the closet.

Well, time for bed under the mosquito net. Super nervous to start tomorrow. Hope God knows what He threw me into...


(picture of my room and bed)

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

How should I...

...do this? OK, I'm back from Africa and had a safe (thank God) and productive (thank God) trip. However, absolutely no computer access, zero, null, nada, none...of course that means I couldn't blog, soooo I will start doing it daily now as if I was there. I journaled daily and will post those.

Starting tomorrow because I'm tired right now.

Sunday, March 14, 2010

I'm in Holland...

...isn't that weird.

Well, transalantic flights could always be better when traveling in coach. Surprisinly quiet with only one child on board. The guy next to me only said one thing to me for 7 hours. No joke, as soon as he got on the plane, "I can't remember the last time I flew coach for an international flight." Some people just want everyone to know they are big time. I wanted to respond, "Me neither", but who am I kidding. The rest of time he went over a powerpoint on marketing strategies for Germany...I had the slides memorized by the end of the flight - it wasn't that interesting.

Also, I had the honor of a permanent "black box" under the seat in front of me. It was pretty awesome not straightening my legs for 7 hours. I almost couldn't walk when we got here...

...well, off to Kenya in an hour. I'm going to check out the museum here at Schiphol before I go...tata...

Saturday, February 20, 2010

Okay...


...so I haven't posted in forever. Too much going on catch everyone up but some of it's been great, some has been frustrating and some has been really sad.

Like most days, today had a high and a low. Speaking of highs, temperatures in The Roch reached the high 20s or low 30s today it what has been an extremely warm winter for us. I thought I'd take advantage and run outside today. As I headed toward my regular route, it became apparent that state trails for running in the summer were snow pack trails for snow "machines" (thanks SP) in the winter. I figured, what the heck and ran on the hardpack. Turns out running in the snow is actually pretty fun, the most fun I've had in a while...well at least since taking Evan skiing on Sunday. I almost felt like a kid again. The shorts were okay but next time I need to remember gloves.

On the low side, I put in a ceiling fan in the bedroom the last couples days. It was awesome: wired in a new switch, spent some time in the attic running the wire, punched a hole in the ceiling, placed a fan mount and assembled the fan (all while Evan was "helping"). Turn the switch and nothing happened. Guess I have something to do tomorrow now.

Marathon training: 4 miles in the snow today (13 mi this week, 81 mi last 4 weeks)

Kenya: Leave in 21 days

Sunday, November 1, 2009

A fall day...



...can be a magical day when you're a kid. We raked leaves today - a Minnesotan fall tradition before the snow starts falling - and the kids had a blast.



I never had to rake leaves or had trees that required this kind of maintenance growing up, but clearly I understand the joy that a "larger than life" pile of leaves can bring. It is such a blessing to have these moments with our children. To see them happy and unashamed of their undeniable joy, kids have the freedom to enjoy the world on a level that seems far away from adulthood. Not oppressed by deadlines or external pressures, they run free and wild through their childhood.



God's grace and mercy is infinite. And, I long for my children to someday understand that the treasures stored for them in heaven and the inheritance that Jesus has promised them will bring this kind of joy: a joy that is undeniable and permeates from their very soul. A joy like they felt as children on a fall day with a pile of leaves.

Marathon training: Rest day, 21 mi this week, 53.5 mi total

Kenya: 131 days

Thursday, October 22, 2009

A research day...


... is usually full of surprises. Today was an official "research day" for my staff, which means I can go on the academic adventure of my choosing. So, I decided to cross-scrub a partial nephrectomy (tumor removal from a kidney) and then concentrate my afternoon on prostate and kidney cancer research. While some projects have been more than frustrating and difficult, others continue to bear fruit. Today, I was awarded an opportunity to speak about my research on a novel approach to prostate cancer surgery at the Society of Urologic Oncology in Washington DC (at the National Cancer Institute) this December. I'm excited, but nervous. It will be quite a test to see if my research holds up against the biggest names in the field. But, I get a practice run in Arizona next month; I'm speaking about my research on bladder neck preservation during prostate cancer surgery and, a third project, on anesthesia technique affect on prostate cancer recurrence and survival.

More importantly, my family continues to grow up. I can't believe how quickly this all happens - I know Mom and Dad, "you told me so". Noah is already a toddler (but he is my baby) and Evan is just an absolute joy of a little man. I guess I'm especially sensitive to the fact that life is short, as one my favorite songs it quick to point out...

No, I'm not colorblind
I know the world is black and white
Try to keep an open mind
But I just can't sleep on this tonight

Don't know how else to say it
I don't want to see my parents go
One generation's length away
From finding life out on my own

Stop this train
I want to get off and go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving, and
Honestly won't someone stop this train

So scared of getting older
I'm only good at being young
So I play the numbers game
To find a way to say that life has just begun

Had a talk with my old man
Said, "Help me understand"
He said, "Turn 68, you'll renegotiate
Don't stop this train,
Don't for a minute change the place you're in,
And don't think I ever couldn't understand
I tried my hand, son, honestly we'll never stop this train."

Once in awhile, when it's good
It will feel like it should
And everyone is still around
And you're still safe and sound
And you don't miss a thing until you cry when you're driving away in the dark
Singing, "Stop this train"

I want to get off and go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can
Cause now I see that I will never stop this train

That pretty much sums up my feelings about turning 30 in a couple months. Weird...

Marathon training: 3.5 mi today, 12.5 mi week, 25.5 mi total (almost a marathon!!!)

Kenya: 141 days (start praying)

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Riding the bus...


...isn't as fun as advertised. Just ask Evan. As small children, we are all lured in by the idea of riding the school bus. The bus is almost as big a deal as going to school itself. Evan has been riding the bus to school from the first day of school, but Maryn would always pick him. He really wanted to ride the bus home, so we let him despite our warning about big kids and taking longer to get home. Well, he rode home last week only to discover that we were right: the bus is much more fun going to school than coming home. Turns out, none of his "friends" were on his bus, he was not 100% confident on where to dismount and it "took forever." This week, Evan is taking that ride home...this is the beginning of many "I told you so" moments in Evan's (Mr. Strongwill) childhood.

Also, Maryn went and locked herself out of the house while running yesterday. Don't ask...

Marathon training: 3.5 miles today, 5.5 mi yesterday, 9 mi this week, 22 mi total

Kenya: 141 days

Sunday, October 18, 2009

A lazy, busy day...


...that's what I would call today. A few of the events: hitting a driver into a 40-mph headwind on a par-3 from 172 yards and putting it 4 feet for the birdie, Maryn put on a wedding shower with homemade treats, went on a 3-mile run with the boys, took a little nap and found time to read some urology and watch football. Nice way to spend a rare day off.

Marathon training: 3 mi today, 12.5 mi this week, 12.5 mi total

Kenya: 144 days

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Running as a family...

...is an interesting task with a 5.5 and a 1.5. Today, Maryn and I headed out for a family-4-miler on the Douglas Trail. This was the first time we tried this, but I pushed Noah in the stroller and Evan rode his bike. Other than pushing Evan up the hills (thanks Maryn) it was a very enjoyable and fruitful time for the four of us. I was listening to Phil Wickam as we ran (thanks Christi) and I think it was a great gift from God to have a sunny, warm day (mid-40s) in Rochester on a half-day off.

"True Love" by Phil Wickam
The earth was shaking in the dark,
All creation felt the Father's broken heart.
Tears were filling Heaven's eyes,
The day that true love died.
When blood and water hit the ground,
Walls we couldn't move came crashing down.
And we were freed and made alive,
The day that true love died.
The Father gave His only son, just to save us.


Marathon Training: 4 miles today, 9.5 miles this week, 9.5 miles total training

Countdown to Kenya: 145

Thursday, October 15, 2009

The front line...


...is a hard place to be in medicine. The diagnosis of cancer is difficult to understand but it is the one I currently discuss with patients everyday. For most patients, it is routine for me. I see their personal concerns, the change in family expressions, the in-fighting that begins almost immediately, and mostly, the fear. Most days and most patients, I brush this aside as routine, ordinary, and expected. Breaking it down into nuts and bolts, numbers, odds, risks, treatments options (if there are any) and possibilities, I see their challenge and lack of concentration and force them to move on. I see them reorienting their life's expect ions and I force them to see that this is normal - for me. While cancer suddenly defines their existence, it is a diagnosis with laid out treatment modalities to me. And so, I push their shock - and their reality and humanness - into the lobby, where the family can deal with it amongst themselves.

Once or twice a day, the compassion that brought me into this field surfaces and I relax. I stop worrying about the tasks ahead of me that day and I connect with my patients. Crazy stories of traveling salesman, the glory years, those deployments with the navy, and bragging about their children and grandchildren. Patients come to life and I empathizes with their struggle and future obstacles. I become their cheerleader. These moments are great. These patients get better care - not scientifically, but emotionally. I feel like I've made an impact, only to find myself an hour behind, squeezed for time and rushing through "the next cancer."

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

So it begins...


...yes, I'm entering the world of blogging. I've realized I have little of importance to say to most people, but still, some care about what I do and what I'm thinking. I'm really starting this with my family in mind. Hopefully they find this entertaining and an easy way to keep up with my life. So, hi everyone. Hi mom and dad. Love you all.


The first bit of news: I took a crazy pill last week. Despite my resistance and intellect, I've been tricked into training for a marathon in the spring. Yeah, we'll see how that goes. I have my 30 week training program laid out - following it will be the challenge. Wish me luck.